in ’09 i thought i was in my prime
rapping all the time, while i was hitting on some dimes
18 years on the planet yeah granted
i thought that i had everything figured and understand
look at me i’m a teen, smoke weed
drink OE and party til my insides bleed
straight up living in a bubble
confined to a world of getting in my own trouble
sure i was depressed and yes i had my stress
but i had no responsibilities or sense of all the rest
so i would smoke, write rhymes and record
party hard throughout the night and start again in the morn
drown it out and think that really i was staying afloat
when in reality, i never even got in the boat
oh the duality and so phase 1 was a go
charting course to expand my mind and finally grow

it’s so crazy when you think that you know it
but you don’t know a thing at all
i reminisce to the days where i thought that i was running
when i barely could crawl
all you need is a moment when you fall up on your ass
and the curtain is pulled
when you see that you never really see
til you see that you never really see it at all

around 2013 or like the end of 2012
i had broken out a shell, started improving myself
several psychedelics helped me to open up a door
everything is interconnected, im grounded to the floor
put the blunts down, i wanna shed my self
my best friend went from an L to living on a book shelf
started reading started seeing i had habits to break
right around the time when i would learn to meditate
final year of college when i got the best grades
went home that summer and i threw it all away
progress was made & i changed my brain
but i succumbed to being numb and started playing again
i don’t wanna get a job, rather sit my ass
i don’t wanna eat well, i’ll just smoke on grass
and im going downward on a spiral path
until i hit a brick wall when i ran out of gas

it’s so crazy when you think that you know it
but you don’t know a thing at all
i reminisce to the days where i thought that i was running
when i barely could crawl
all you need is a moment when you fall up on your ass
and the curtain is pulled
when you see that you never really see
til you see that you never really see it at all

2014 got a full time job
business casual, 8-5 grind
felt like i was putting on a costume, funny
this ain’t me, but im making mad money
2016 bought me a new whip
2017 i’m in a serious relationship
5 years at it finally breaking bad habits
eating well, sleeping well, still singing & rapping
but i knew that it was not my truth
gave one month’s notice & hopped in the subaru
drove cross country from new york to california
to start a new life and switch up the daily order
and hear i am recording, meditating daily
i don’t drink much, i’m growing out my hair
i’m following my dream & you can do it to
keep the past in the past and the future in your view

it’s so crazy when you think that you know it
but you don’t know a thing at all
i reminisce to the days where i thought that i was running
when i barely could crawl
all you need is a moment when you fall up on your ass
and the curtain is pulled
when you see that you never really see
til you see that you never really see it at all