i’m tired of the social climate and the climate change i’m tired even though it’s wild that i’m wide awake i’m tired of all of the fake cheesing i’m tired cause i’m tired i don’t need a fucking reason seasonal depression, question: if the seasons are all blending together can a line be drawn or am i better off leaving it to equinox’s regional suggestions? i’m stuck inside my head and so is everybody last night i grabbed dinner with the don and we spoke about it got it off my chest like a bench press, wah-lah there’s a heavenly body in everybody so please reach out if you’re feeling down and use your phone for what its made for and call around and say: “hey, a penny for your thoughts, what do ya say?” i can always spare to make change it’ll be okay it’ll be okay and you say “why pity” it'll be okay i can change my city i’m tired of the social climate and the violent ways i’m tired even though i’m high and i could fly away i’m tired of all the nights grieving i’m tired cause i’m tired i don’t need a fucking reason lend me your discretion, lesson: it’s easy for hate to manifest in fuck destiny, you can change it all if you wanna and start upon your path to nirvana i’m stuck inside my head but so is everybody last night i took a walk into the woods to give my head a jogging leaves fall from the tree and they rot humus is born as the soils new heart so even out of death there is life even though there’s breathe in your strife you can rearrange your plight take flight into the night of a new way go to sleep and wake up within a new day it’ll be okay and you say “why pity” it'll be okay i can change my city

i want everybody in here right now to chill take a lil breather from the uphill feel see the hill is a metaphor for strife in ya life and right now we don’t need to continue to fight it’s very nice to have a drink on ice and contemplate where you are in the moment precise and right now i am here with you and if i do say so myself what a beautiful view i got love for the people in my life that’s right i got love for the people that i’m meeting tonight i got love for the people who are no longer here i got love for all people cross the atmosphere i wanna exercise my right to spread peace tonight i got an appetite for life and yes im eating alright i got a plate with some bread that i’ll break with you just chill, that’s all i wanna do with you it’s true that’s all i want chilling with you baby nice to meet ya so glad that you ya came now it would be a shame if i didnt know your name my name’s juicebox but you can call me josh from the boondocks right up on the hill with the fox fish mailbox, used to play with matchboxes the clock is ticking im thinking of all options i wanted to extend an invitation to rock with everybody here on some real hip-hop shit forget about what happened yesterday rock to the rhythm in the best of ways because today feels like forever hey i thought that we could get together ay did i make it clear that it’s a hazy year? there’s no doubt in my mind that it’s crazy here but i’m happy just be here in amazement yeah i raise a glass to my new friends, baby, cheers

it’s richard scary how i rip the dictionary i land as if canary on the prairie in a camry pack pottery with lush green lottery to give myself an honoring with sovereignty lobotomies hardly an offering when i’m off of the autumn tree automatically hearty cause i got a smart artery laugh haphazardly cause we’re in a wacky race first place goes to miss dick dastardly passion’s not a passer by convenienced by an alibi precedence of the laughter cries appeasement to the malakai calisthenic method of the modern mogul medic amalgamate your bread to make it fit within your head width ego is but a meatball chilling on your sub knock it off, still got your 2 balls and a glove why you talk so much shit when it’s really all love? relax, just chill and go and light another dub check the sun dial heat is coming in running in with a style all encompassing it’s all smiles when your inner child functions as it is, while the kid gets smashed like a pumpkin on a bridge an interruption had appeared and smeared the vision of the sage as the paper tree flourished on the transcendental plane and the alimony parrots flew apparent though they daren’t while the number 5 train clocked a frame in your brain upon a flashback you tracked back in fact had an out of body experience and couldn’t react fast, well that’s that the sun glare, the high sky i run there, to stop by you weren’t there, so i left an hour late, i catch my breath heart palpitates, thought i took care of that... i have a lot to learn, i’m well aware of that i take a seat now, in the green grass feel the sun shine, see the clouds pass hear the sounds in my ears dance quick fast on a sonic adventure, like a dreamcast wise is the spirit who identifies the folly rolling on some molly in bali feeling jolly he pops an ollie with the speed of maserati indeed he probably tried to be free of the melancholy i seek to reach 100 deeds to make proud and do it for my dogs like eddie mcdowd but never pause gotta keep energy moving around but i bet it all falls down when you move with a crowd stay vigilant but distant from the penmanship to keep it all mysterious and all the while most interesting sentient intimate inching to spirit cleanliness envious is a trait that is better left in the empty wind put away your dentures baby chew on that my book of rhymes are never-ending with falcor in the back

your vintage smile should stay a while static state of mind i wait to see the picture that you see colorblind kid with the faded paint never change for no one dear not for no one disappear i was staring in the backyard back home met with visions crystal clear smoking on palm trees i breathe somewhere between awake and asleep after all is all we’re after i’m in love with feeling laughter laugh with you until my eyes drown see it take shape in the great background there’s a whole other side from the half you see laying on my back on a tapestry i know the situation has a gravity i try to approach it practically balance between here and the absentee the median is where we live happily buildings grow and trees will die wind will blow the breathing sky parts unknown i’m surprised to find the jester moonwalk occupies a space that’s far but couldn’t be closer amazed he can maintain composure in a place where plots are devised he doesn’t need to be supervised we all can learn from a man like this rock to the rhythm on a jam like this if it’s bad, it doesn’t need to be that boomerang (stars) bars’ll bring you right back it’s time ya win some, lose some, a to b the moment’s where you claim to be but you get lost in the scheme of things ya gotta be aware of the pain it brings chasing clouds as midnight walks lucid living hugs us all pacing crowds of clicking clocks rushing towards a great brick wall illusions break when you’re awake eyes wide shut we claim to see the true test begets when we rattle & shake this is how we came to be you’re better off dead, the governor said as he kicked you out of town lonely in your head, lonely in your bed are you lonely just a bit not fitting in the crowd? see the moment, seize the moment see the moment, seize the moment see the moment, freeze your omen free. …… if you read people at a fifth grade level you’re bound to be recruited by the devil the type that’ll revel before the job’s done if it was always first try then it wouldn’t be fun collapse and relapse, writing to the tracks step on tree cracks, feel the breeze on your back dripping mixture, melting fixtures fix ya liver, leaks with liquor reeks of reefer, sweet but bitter please the pillar beneath the vineyard the nature of the sky is originally clear this is a point that i won’t defer but gazing and gazing for years and years will only make that sight obscured good without evil is up without down fire doesn’t wait for the sun to be hot if you live like a circle going round and round you’ll never be found like an afterthought see the sun in the midst of rain the sound of water says what i think un-born, un-dying i say i invite you to please have a drink

it a took a beat for the street EP to be complete rather neat, and discrete we eat, bon appetite from the east NY i see, with only peace to the sea, norway my G, oh what a treat i write a rap from my black knapsack rather magnificent the pen hits the pad like that, sailing a penmanship i rap to do do that that, i’m reminiscent with a blast from the past like that, man on a mission back to back with the classic track, man are you listening?! you pass when i pass right back, a diamond glistens in my glass when i shoot one back, no scotty pippin bull shitting as the day flies past, who are you kidding? man i say what i gotta say, play what i gotta play bathe in the rays of my ways on a holiday make no apology when no wrong’s done the fat lady ran out of breath before the song was sung you want this you want that you want that now you want that now i rock over a rhythm that is honest and true i couldn’t give a fuck if it was coming from you your motor mouth running like you’re breaking ya jaw i shouldn’t give a fuck at all, we’re all flawed i listen to the frequencies that put me on got more grass in my lungs than you got on your lawn i dance in trance in a moment in time still tryna find one doper than mine oops there goes my ego making a break at least i admit it when i make a mistake but sometimes, you need to be cocky as hell as long as you’re not hurting anyone else you know & i know boundaries the healthy medium where all things can breath make no apology if no wrong was done and get the fuck up out my face if you’re an evil one you want this you want that you want that now you want that now they’re chasing after the capital, rotten like a bad apple they grapple after the chapel in dire need of a chaperone apollonia phony philosophy’s on the back burner fire rising much higher than psilocybin spectacular actions are much needed, when the world needs weeding we’re in need of a new ingredient to be expedient to raise the median believing in achieving even odds once thought to be out of reach of the seedy men greedy men, happy to trample over their brothers if it means they could reach those means to top each other until it all topples over when the moment is done they rather hide within the shadows than to bask in the sun it’s all fucked up but no doubt we stay true and knock beats and write rhymes for a lifetime thru so make no apology when no wrong was done and light a fat one to this in the warmth of the sun

the tables turn like interior decoration inferior is the fate of the man who’s living in hate why would you, put yourself on a pedestal when every single one of us is running on the treadmill dead still, they won’t realize it til it’s too late ignorance is bliss, sorta jealous of that view today immunity in a sense of what it truly is the divine duality of a newer bridge channel love to crossover and once upon the other side’ll be my hand to pull you closer i just wanna be connected, i realize the many conflicting views and perspectives can throw off humanity as a single collective but the thought is nice…. its both hell & a paradise find the balance and it’s bound to be apparent, right?

he was born a shadow, goin’ mano y mano his brain dismantled, playin’ on his piano fade to black like soprano a midnight animal posted on the wall like 'ammo' subliminal integral minuscule movements inchin’ to the finish-line for cool kids true it's harder if you think about it easy if you do it harder to understand but easy to misconstrue it the irony guess i need more iron in my diet fire in my eyelids are burning with all desire it's a riot. living by a code that i admire my funeral pyre will be higher than your sire its simple, the only thing you’re pimpin’ is a pimple while a thug would put a hole in your face, not talkin’ dimple not me ima peaceful man you could catch me chillin’ in japan you could catch me in the palm of your hand and throw me deep into a black hole to vanish with the planets sick universal dipshit lip split from spliff hits and love thick chicks with big hips witness the instant gratification of temporary complacentness while pacing in basement it's obligatory you listen to peoples stories rags riches to glory legends and sacred inventory hey, sorry if im being boring while hiatus kaiyote choruses are orbiting my auditory all in all i know my fortune is fortunate bringing the best of both worlds cause lord knows theres gotta be more than this

in ’09 i thought i was in my prime rapping all the time, while i was hitting on some dimes 18 years on the planet yeah granted i thought that i had everything figured and understand look at me i’m a teen, smoke weed drink OE and party til my insides bleed straight up living in a bubble confined to a world of getting in my own trouble sure i was depressed and yes i had my stress but i had no responsibilities or sense of all the rest so i would smoke, write rhymes and record party hard throughout the night and start again in the morn drown it out and think that really i was staying afloat when in reality, i never even got in the boat oh the duality and so phase 1 was a go charting course to expand my mind and finally grow it’s so crazy when you think that you know it but you don’t know a thing at all i reminisce to the days where i thought that i was running when i barely could crawl all you need is a moment when you fall up on your ass and the curtain is pulled when you see that you never really see til you see that you never really see it at all around 2013 or like the end of 2012 i had broken out a shell, started improving myself several psychedelics helped me to open up a door everything is interconnected, im grounded to the floor put the blunts down, i wanna shed my self my best friend went from an L to living on a book shelf started reading started seeing i had habits to break right around the time when i would learn to meditate final year of college when i got the best grades went home that summer and i threw it all away progress was made & i changed my brain but i succumbed to being numb and started playing again i don’t wanna get a job, rather sit my ass i don’t wanna eat well, i’ll just smoke on grass and im going downward on a spiral path until i hit a brick wall when i ran out of gas it’s so crazy when you think that you know it but you don’t know a thing at all i reminisce to the days where i thought that i was running when i barely could crawl all you need is a moment when you fall up on your ass and the curtain is pulled when you see that you never really see til you see that you never really see it at all 2014 got a full time job business casual, 8-5 grind felt like i was putting on a costume, funny this ain’t me, but im making mad money 2016 bought me a new whip 2017 i’m in a serious relationship 5 years at it finally breaking bad habits eating well, sleeping well, still singing & rapping but i knew that it was not my truth gave one month’s notice & hopped in the subaru drove cross country from new york to california to start a new life and switch up the daily order and hear i am recording, meditating daily i don’t drink much, i’m growing out my hair i’m following my dream & you can do it to keep the past in the past and the future in your view it’s so crazy when you think that you know it but you don’t know a thing at all i reminisce to the days where i thought that i was running when i barely could crawl all you need is a moment when you fall up on your ass and the curtain is pulled when you see that you never really see til you see that you never really see it at all

catch a motherfucking tiger by the toe and i dip i was thinkin bout the days when i was only a kid when everything was all good and the summers were a dream though depression & anxiety would come in my teens i would try and skip stones on the hudson river keyword is “try” but i never did give up i had a crush on a different girl every other week daydreaming about our lives together could nearly see it all happen at the blink of an eye i started getting anxious and i didnt know why could it my impending death, but im too young nothing wrong with being sensitive but damn im sprung so as i grew i learned to embrace this fact i feel it all a little more intense than that guy and that’s why i am who i am today im vulnerable baby and that’s okay be vulnerable baby boy that’s okay be vulnerable baby girl that’s okay be vulnerable old folks that’s okay be vulnerable every day and oh my days i remember crying at the back of a high school party cause the girl that i liked didn't feel the same now you could look back at a whole bunch of pictures from that time and say damn juicebox was off the chain and you would be right but at the same time you never see what’s going on on the sidelines i open up like a jack in a box the back of a clock rap like the LOX with flames like matchbox and all the while im doing it wholeheartedly live with my whole artery give with the whole all of me all while with honesty, integrity and honoring the principles i came up on you don't need to see green just to give it a go you don’t need a million people just to put on a show i share cause i care, and rightfully so if i wasn’t vulnerable then you never would know be vulnerable baby boy that’s okay be vulnerable baby girl that’s okay be vulnerable old folks that’s okay be vulnerable every day and all/oh your days i used to see a therapist i used to take anti-depressants i saw my first shrink when i was in 5th grade i used to be sad, look how far i came my girlfriend is beautiful (yes she is) my home is beautiful (yes it is) my studio is beautiful (oh yes it is) music is so beautiful (the best it is) i think about every single tear drop hip-hop beat chop heart ache hours writing lyrics on my laptop they got me where i am today, what can i say? music was the escape from all of the pain and i recycle that there so i can lift the veil to reveal what it was that helped me prevail and if that helps even one person alone i know that it’s worth it to be vulnerable